Sunday, July 02, 2006
1:17 AM
Confession: I can’t get along with my family. There is like no connection, no chemistry. Nothing. The things like guides that meant the world to me means nothing to them. Funny that we are related by blood right? I feel kinda uncomfortable when I am with them except for my cousins, feels kinda funny with the adults. Being not on the same wavelength with them seems like an illegal thing with them and I feel like they don’t TRY to understand me, as a teenager,not as kid. Whatever, saying it feels good here even though I seems evil to do that. My dad changed the damn password just now when I have a fight with both of them about my friends coming over to watch high school musical and cuz they say its family time on Sunday but get this, my mum is flying to Jakarta today for my great-grandma funeral.So..what family time?? They just don’t practice what they preach. As usual.
Another thing, my dad found out about my blog. Horray. Ya right. Now, nothing is private anymore. It seems like I have nothing to call my own anymore, everything also must report to them.like I would like that. They don’t know half the things that is happening to me, mainly cuz they are school and guides stuff.
Music..i found, is one of my channel for venting all my frustration and whatever feelings I have. Another is guides, but now since my term is over, I can’t do that anymore.
Campfire is in 2 weeks time. Man..i can’t wait!! I think that all the sec 4s will be the backstage crew..nice! I think that the sec 3s are doing a good job doing all the stuff considering the theme is a hard one. I hope it will be successful and I hope that nothing bad like the sound system going bad or anything. Oh and maybe some seniors coming back for the campfire, that will mean a lot to me.
N levels English oral starts next Tuesday and N level Chinese oral starts on the 17th of July. Nervous man. Never been good at talking,especially Chinese, I can’t read lots of words. Sure die one. Also, need to start studying, the social studies is like next month.
Sorry, promise to write nicer things next time.