i'm tired, very tired, aching everywhere yet feeling quite energetic.
strange?I think so too.

I offically have no life. I am serious. I am out of the house at 7am and if i have stuff after school, i will be going home at 7pm or if there is dreams 5 meeting, then maybe 11pm?By then, i will only have the energy to bath then if nesscary, go on the comp. So, basically, i go home only to sleep.
But i am not complaining la.

TWO WEEKS to dreams 5
TWO DAYS to pre-expedition camp.

1 more month to speech day
The rehearsals are killing me, today, i took over cai er in one part of the rehearsal as a flag bearer, it was quite cool but your hands will be super tired.

Good things that come out of all these?
I lose weight and my fruits of labour are coming.

God,i hate it when history repeats itself.
And i will do anything not to let it happen again, i just cant afford it, it means too much to me.

Dug out this picture..from ages ago...
somehow, we were able to predict the future.
how strange..but if this is what the future is, i can never stop worrying.

I miss them!and the way we used to be.

pieces from the past.these pieces tell strange stories that you and i used to know soo well.

Thinking back for these past 2 months or so, I haven’t had the time to think and only be with me and my thoughts and it’s not gonna happen anytime soon. My June holiday is already jam packed, up till the last week, with the GGS carnival and speech day rehearsals added inside just today. Which leaves me with virtually no time to study and I want to study! The only way around it is to either stay up late and study everyday or maybe bring my study materials with me to dreams, which is a possibility too.
I’ve got to type out the lesson plan and the translation thing for vocabulary and short phrases. Also to bath,ciao!
Oh,jie,have a good time at camp!

Life’s been super hectic and busy, tired but happy. On Friday, the CTT (Cultural and Teaching Team) stayed back in school to have our team meeting and before that, the car wash.
Our car wash was pathetic we only wash 4 cars and a set of tires. It’s was our fault la, we didn’t put in enough effort to convince the teachers to buy the coupons. There was a lot of If’s at the end of the day. Only Adeline was successfully in selling all 5 of her coupons. Congrats =D .I know I am not suppose to say this but I had a lot of fun at the car wash. Really, I don’t mind having another one now that I know which teachers to sell to( the list is in my head already.haha). After the car wash at around 6+, we started on our team meeting at the conference room near the GO, it was cool la, being the first time I entered that room. We ordered pizza and begin the meeting. Oh, Lionel, Lester and Mr Gana sat in. We discussed the usual stuff, mainly handouts. After that, we stuffed ourselves silly with Hawaiian and seafood pizzas, sweet n spicy chicken drumlets ,garlic bread and pepsi. It was good! Oh ya, we also moved the computers from an area near the d&t room to the d&t room. The room where they stored the computers was very cooling la. I am envious-of the computers.
Saturday morning, went to school for the real meeting at 8. We presented our updates and went through our goals and all. Got a half scolding and half nagging from Lionel for the car wash but we deserved la,as I said earlier. I went to eat lunch with Andreas and Adeline and ate a sinful Char Kway Teow for lunch. Andreas treated us to drinks! Ty! Haha, I realized that the girls are always getting treated, first, Mr gana after the injections and then Andreas. So, maybe, that’s the perks of being 1 of 5 girls going for the trip. After lunch, we went off to the d&t room to move the computers into the boxes to be shipped to PBP( Palau Belakang Padang) and it was hard work. We quickly rushed off to change for the parents’ conference. When we entered that conference room again, the atmosphere was noticeably different, it become formal. It was good, I guess. My parents are still laughing at me for my inability to speak bahasa Indonesia and for not being able to cook. Need to take a crash course in both. But, I will survive. My mum noticeably points out that the whole crew kinda depends on the 3 of us(Adeline, Byran and I) , that’s kinda pressuring la. But I notice something similar for the Indonesian-chinese who live in Singapore for a long time, when we speak, it’s always a rojak of 3 languages. Chinese, English and Bahasa Indonesia.Okay, its 1am, got to go to bed.

Aku cinta dreams 5. Really.

Finally! I passed my 2.4km! yahoo! Happy happy happy but my feet are aching now. My timing was 15:21mins, my fastest timing yet. It was like surreal cos I ran the 2 rounds in around 9mins. That’s the good news, the bad news is that I think I will have to run again cos they will resume everything in term 3 and in the 5 items, I failed standing broad jump, knn! Let’s hope my luck would be as good as it was this morning or the best, no need to re-run =D.
Wow. After chatting with Edith, I realised that June will be a very hectic month for me.
28th May-Chinese Os.
29th May- Some guides stuff on..forgot what is gonna to happen.
2-3rd June- Dreams 5 pre-expedition camp.
4-6th June- Literature workshops.
1st week of June- Supplementry classes.
9th-17th June- Dreams 5.
18-20th June- Maybe going to the advanced camp. Not a high chance of going though.
20th June- Speech day rehearsal.
22nd June- Campfire.
23rd June- GGS carnival.
28th/29th June- Speech day.

Btw, Shiyama and Jason, congrats for getting top in English and history/ss respectively for N levels =D.

I know I am suppose to do a reflection on dreams 5 on the blog but I will do one here, first.3 meetings (6, counting the informal ones) on and sure hell I am not regretting going ahead with it. Even though I am going to get jabs next Thursday (ouch!). Everyone had been great, really. Especially Yikai, he practically saved my life, to be frank. If it wasn’t for him, there wouldn’t be any handouts. Dreams 5 means lots of things, like not going out every Saturday (and believe me, that piss off lots of people), late nights doing the stuff and lotsa of other stuff. Good stuff like getting to know everyone, not just judge by who I though them to be, bonding with the scouts. Things also that never expected. It’s hard to explain why I like it, like explaining why I like guides. Cos people will think I am crazy. I will save the later reflections for dreams 5’s blog. Not that I don’t want to write it here, cos I am a bit lazy to write the rest here/Lester asked us to write an entry on the blog by Wednesday and I got other stuff to write about here. Oh, also, I’ve got 2 more blogs to post entries to.
Good friends, I believe, are the one that can have conversations in which we can crap alot but yet also have conversation that are philosophical and deep; conversations from the heart. I want the same thing from my boyfriend, definitely. They are rare, even with close friends, time and everything else gets in the way. I miss them alot. Man, they go deep, but I won’t tell you what we talk about.*grin*. In a way, this is how we connect and how we understand each other. They are also not planned to think of it. My mind had been drifting to this certain topic for days already and I can’t seem to stop thinking about it. Jie say that things may be changing. For the best I hope.
My dream is to have an overseas trip, a week maybe with the gang, just the 4 of us. Maybe near the beach cos the beach is a pretty good place. It’s peaceful and it’s a good place for reflections. Haven’t had much time for them now with everything else going on. You know, doing all the crazy stuff one day and just plain slacking the next. From what I can see, everyone needs that break, especially Da. How I wish I can just do that now but nah, not possible. We can’t even meet up during June cos everyone is busy.

I’m trying not to think about next year. First, I will be in a whole new environment, at home (I will be moving house at the end of year or early next year) and at school. I will be missing my neighbours, even though I don’t talk to them anymore. I’ve practically grown up with them la. The Leow boys (who are men now),The Low siblings, The Cheong siblings and other people. It will be weird not seeing them. The assurance will be gone. Haven’t think about them in a long time. I will miss them. School, I don’t need to say, new people, new system and everything new.

Excited yet scared.

Can’t wait for prom though, Kamini and Zakiah thinks that it will be in the school hall. Yeah, Graduation night, gonna take alot of pictures. But, first up, O levels, can’t seem to concentrate on that. I wonder how magically the school hall will turn out to be, it had already been the stage of quite a number of significant events during the past 4 years. But still, I trust that the magic will play its part on that night. It will mark the end of my secondary school life and the beginning of a new chapter in life.

All growth is a leap in the dark, a spontaneous, unpremeditated act without benefit of experience.
-Henry Miller

Exams will be over next Friday but it is already killing me man. Sitting at the back of the hall isn’t exactly the best place to sit for mid-years. I’ve always like classrooms more than the hall when I am doing a paper. The sound of the teachers’ footsteps are like very loud cos of the floor and the teacher’s voice from the front sounds kinda muffled. Okay, also, it’s hot la but when it’s raining, it’s nice.
I hereby declare that I most probably will fail my physics and maths. Almost all of the formulas went out of my head. I gonna to be soo dead la. Must Jiayou for the rest of the subjects!
I’m soo tired and gonna to be very busy after the exams. Must go see doctor by Thursday so most probably will be going on Monday after history paper to complete the Medical Declaration form and the passport thing also must hand in by Thursday. Then I think I will give some more tee designs to Siong Hui/Adeline. I wanna our dreams 5 tee to look cool! =D. Oh ya, I also need to remind Dennis to print the windows handout asap. Gonna to go out later (12 hours later, to be more specific) with Shiyama, Sabrina and Edith to study at Esplanade. Must hang in there! Can’t give in to fatigue now, it’s too soon. Between Dreams 5 and exams, I don’t have time to think about other stuff. That’s a relief, kinda. Oh ya, I will also be going to Dreams 5 meeting, shopping with Edith and out with the Frappies after the mid-years. Busy, busy, busy.