my to-do list before the emo closing ceromony last fri.

my sis's class motivational stuff.pretty cool, ya?

I’m happy!! Now I FINALLY know why. It’s back to the fate thing I was talking about last time. This time round, it has something to do with Fred, my dear Poiseiden leader. Turns out that an old friend of mine, Pris from MCS was his classmate for 4 years straight! HAHA. It’s that coincidental! Of course, we are gonna ambush and shock him together. Lol. It makes me feel(and sound) like a lil kid again, doing this kinda thing, but it’s fun !!And, she, like my dear Andreas dedicated one paragraph to me, soo sweet!!! I miss MCS too, the way it used to be, back in the Schoonbeck days (LOL, we were fortunate enough to be her last batch, but you know what I mean).T he wonders of fate. I guess that why Fred was in Poisaiden. Mystery 2 solved. HAHA. I don’t know, but it feels like I did lots of socializing back then. Did I ? Oh ya, going back this year?

I came across an old friend today, mr Carpe Diem . Carpe Diem means Seize the day. While I was reading a chicken soup for the soul story this morning, I came across this one line. The dynamics of making any relationship work: Just keep putting you love out there aka putting your heart on the line. And give love without requiring anything in return. I think that one need to have a huge amount of courage to do just that. My courage, these few days, more often than not, failed me. I just can’t trust myself to say the right things. Where I got the courage to do DREAMS 5, I am not really sure, the amount of courage then just came in large amounts from god knows where. I wish I know where to find it so that I can use it now.

Today’s weather was beautiful. Felt exactly like PBP on the 8th day. I was thinking about it during recess, when it was raining cats and dogs and it made me think of the time when the sky hated Poiseiden and every time we wanted to paint the court, it will start raining and our sekupang pier adventure. Also, after recess, history lesson, to be more specific. Cos we went to the I&E room and Mrs Selva had this mahjong paper on each table with a few markers on top on it to ask each group to do something on the Cultural Revolution (causes etc) then present it, my mind immediately went back to the prep camp where we were asked by Alan to write down what we expect of the (teachers, students etc)when we arrive at PBP and of cos, PIC. Then later at lunch, when JM, CY and I ordered drinks at the nearby coffee shop and JM and I ordered Milo peng and CY, teh peng. I wanted to take a picture of it but no camera. HAHA. All these incidents, I was not like I wanted them to happen, they just did. Been telling my mind to stop for a couple of days but…. Nothing happen. Still the same. The whys? How? Why them? are still running through my mind.

The write-ups are finally finished, mine’s and Addie’s. Very happy about this too, I just hope Lester can open my e-mail and hope that he doesn’t cut too much stuff. I want to see the video again. Hehe. As I said, it’s really touching complete with the captions. The emo spell is more or less gone, except whenever I pass by that room. LOL. Well, it’s THAT room, can’t be helped. =D