Wednesday, August 01, 2007
11:15 PM
Ohana
The echoes from everyone else,
Saying it’s time to move on,
Don’t dwell in the past,
Or even why are you still daydreaming about it?
Yes, we heard your stories,
They said.
You’ve told us, like a million times already.
But something inside me,
Isn’t ready to let go yet,
The yearning to turn back the clock,
Sometimes struck when I least expect it.
I can’t seem to control my mind,
It’s like a CPU drive,
Every little detail is still fresh in my mind,
Like everything happened just yesterday.
Asking myself “why?” for the hundredth time,
The answer is still left hanging. Mid-air.
Half of it goes back to courage.
To fill up that empty hole,
When we re-entered “civilization” together with complication.
Familiarity with isolation from the world and rural surroundings,
Easiness and opening up of the heart,
Came as easily as putting peanut butter and jelly together.
What scares me most is that I actually liked it a lot,
Or for that matter, loved it.
Now, it’s a whole new world to conquer.
Your eyes are filled with memories,
Giving me unspoken melodies you may not know,
I did notice, out of the corner of my eyes,
But my lack of courage and guts,
Failed to get the words out of my mouth
Or even to look.
Which makes me feels bad as I yearn to talk.
So very badly.
Gossips sessions we used to have seemed to be surreal,
For it seemed to have disappeared,
Literally,
As the months pass by,
With the demands of everyday life.
Catching up will take courage and hard work,
Yet, who’s afraid?
Of this is a matter close to my heart,
My dearest survivors.
And I do believe in the power of fate and miracles.
Everyone else can stop talking about it,
The once-in-a-lifetime expedition.
The “Ohana” spirit meanwhile,
Can stay a little while longer.
To retrieve a bright flame,
In a heart of a chalet.