Today and yesterday… are two different extremes. Today was one of those extremely shuang day. Actually got a few factors contributing to it la. One of the main one…is cos Ong and Prem didn’t come! =D. Which means 3 free periods, 2 physics and 1 chem. But nonetheless, we still spent that 3 periods doing papers on our own and at our own pace.Shiyama and I were doing our physics and maths papers. The atmosphere was soo relaxed and quiet la. If this were to happen everyday(1..2…3…FAT HOPE!), I would be happy to study man cos the environment very good to study in mah. Also, during maths, we did our own maths papers..so we had no lesson at all.yay! It was also super hilarious..Dennis and I were suan-ing Shiyama all the way to maths..and then Dennis took Yong’s mic and asked me: “Do you still remember?” then he started “conducting” a lesson in Paint with the mic, saying “pencet start” etc, damn funny lor! But of cos I was the only one laughing at it. I’m surprised(yet again…see la..told ya this guy is full of suprises)he still could remember how to conduct a lesson and how to speak in Bahasa Indonesia( Addie and Gatsby boy, if you guys are reading this…our conversational bahasa lesson may have been effective after all..HAHA). But he was also in the CTT team with me so he should know Paints and Microsoft words very well. Oh, and after recess, we had MT, and I spent about 1 period surfing the net cos I finish my paper early. Final verdict: Sometimes, it’s good to have a fellow dreamer in the same class as you. =)

Have you guys seen it? It means soo much more than a photo, im sure the caption: “my journey with you beside me” tell you guys everything. I want the world to see it and how they will react to it, I don’t really care.

I just received the 3 months letter from Andreas cos my sis just put it on my desk a few hours ago. Now I know her address..haha. I totally forgot about it! Hehe. But,technically its not 3 months yet la, 17th Oct then it will officially be 3 months. I haven’t read it yet(I will read it later in my room la, not to worry), inside the envelope, there are 2 letters, 1 is from me,another is from her.Well, next Monday, will go check with Addie and Lianyi and to see whether they received the same thing as me. Looking it at, got quite a shock la, frankly, also brought me back to the time when we were writing it during the camp. =).miaomiao and yingjie are gonna stay over on both nites for the chalet…hmm..I wonder who else will be doing that too..

I am seriously tired. I can fall asleep at any moment now. We set a new record. 5 periods before and after recess, which includes 3 periods of maths before recess and 3 periods of lit after that. I was lucky I got out of it alive. Another 2 more weeks of hard-core lessons, and everything will be over before we know it. How fast. Yet another painful goodbye awaits me. The first one was painful enough, the second one will be an even harder one. But…

“Parting is such a sweet sorrow”-William Shake-a-spear.
Kapok this quote from Andreas’s blog, cos I totally agree with it. Parting is a bittersweet thing, it signifies a beginning to a new adventure into the unknown, a brand new chapter in our lives among other things. It is a scary and terrifying though, not to be surrounded by the people you’ve grown close to and comfortable with, the “cocoon” of warmth you may or may not have taken for granted.Yet, being open to new experiences is the best part about growing up.

I did it. Out of reminisce,nostalgia and the yearning to abandon everything and jump onto that bumboat and to just simply show that we do matter. I hope you guys like it.

“Experience is what you get when you don't get what you want.”
~ Unknown

Last 2 weeks..let’s go do all the crazy stuff we can think of and do all the things you always in your heart desire want to do. Let’s not look back and regret for if we don’t do it now, we may never get another chance. Simply put: It’s either now or never.

“26 days to the grand opening of the O levels”.HAHA. Aaron wrote this on the board, it makes me laugh everytime I look at it, cos I never thought of it as a “grand opening”. Shiyama and I went sorta nuts today, god knows why, like after maths supp, she was suan-ing me for not paying attention cos I was reading a book and after class she was like “ the book got formula isit?” and I told her “ yea…I was reading in between the lines, in between there was y=mx +c”. really really lame and we were laughing like 2 crazy women that I think that the people sitting outside the library though we were mad or something. And Xinyi and I were shouting at the top of our lungs to each other after my maths supp. Hehe. 2 crazy women indeed.Lessons will be ruthless, beginning tomorrow, there will be no more reading period nor CE nor PE periods, lessons all the way. Okay, maybe having no PE is not a bad thing after all. My last PE lesson was fun though, we had it in the I&E room and mr kwek basically told us his life story, damn hilarious la, “A..for…Absent!”. really funny. I think for the first time, I can die in English, do compo during class, have compre for homework or the other way round…by the time I finish doing, my brain will be dead man. And they are thinking of conducting night classes. In other word, we have no more life till the Os finish, how nice.

Oh yes, apparently I got nominated for the merit award from the SKM along with Shiyama and we had a rehearsal yesterday, funny la, chik heng they all writing the speech to the dry run in the classroom. Chik heng and Chanel were the emcees this morning for the award ceremony and Elise and Yingting were the ones that were giving mr Vilma the certs. There were 13 of us all together.hehe. Nice surprise, didn’t expect it. And we got a bag and this cute little badge and I found out something la, haha, related to 1 of my dreams crapping session, now can confirm it le =D. Oh! And I bought a new glasses, white colour, gonna to collect it on Thursday. So, watch out people! I wonder if the dreams5 cert presentation will be the same as the SKM one…

DREAMS 5 chalet! Leaders paying for the chalet(and we pay for the food cos they will be broke.haha)…how cool is that! Hehe. 3D2N(hopefully la) meaning finally about 72 hours with them alone yet again, the longest since June, I can’t wait(Yeah, I know, I am kinda selfish)! I wonder how it will turn out you know, hopefully we will pick up from right where we left off. And there is the BBQ, the xmas pressie exchanging, games(powerball on the sand again? I don’t mind =D) and all the crapping and lame-ing around again. And..the isolation from the outside world, something I’ve gotten used to with them around. I can’t believe it, but, im still missing you guys.

16 more days to go…

My prelims results will be crappy/disastrous so I figured there is no point getting depressed over it. Prelims results are meant to be disastrous, it’s like that, kinda like the N levels prelims last year. You bet after we get everything back, we will have a lecture by the principal or something, group by group, depending on your results and she will tell us to buck up etc.

Mr Prem was actually nice today, he was in another one of his super good mood. He actually comforted(and not scolded.my god!)us about our prelims results, telling us not to get demoralized and telling us that during the prelims, the teachers will mark your papers very stringently so that we can see our mistakes but they won’t do that during the Os cos the people there are more lenient. Oh, and, we could probably get 20 more marks =). The last part was quite funny la. I also got my holistic report card, wow! I got 89 CIP hours this year! 72 of them were for DREAMS 5. Getting 72 CIP hours to have fun and have a once-in-a-lifetime experience..what a great deal! But the funniest thing was my level of attainment for my strength-social moral where they wrote, “ she had volunteered for 3 days to help build school facilities for the underprivileged in Indonesia this June”. Spot it? 9 days turned into 3 days. HAHA. 9 is such a hard number to remember. Anw, it’s okay la, no big deal, just funny and in the guest-of-honour speech during speech day, she also said DREAMS 5 was for 10 days. Kamini was also joking during recess that when we reached there, the badminton court is already build/we took 3 days to build a badminton court and Dennis was like, “Ya. 3 days to build a badminton court, so funny”.LOL.Told ya 9 is such a hard number to remember ;p

Broken planks;double meanings.AHA!aluminium cans fishing rods.
Last song.last dance.where’s the gloves and music?awaiting recognition.
Last role call.last class.looking at one another in a different light.=)
Usual time, usual place.its complicated but we’ll make it through, somehow.
Got it?yea.I got it. Time to tie up the loose knots.&to start writing. <3
-more for my own reference, actually.

Putri Winata -- [adjective]: Extremely extreme! 'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Been feeling blue and in a daze lately, no mood to talk that kinda thing and to add to that, my super disastrous prelims results, I am soo disappointed in my humanities results, fail by 4 marks, great, and I was counting on it to pass. Damn the SBQ! Now, the only 2 subjects I can rely on to do well is on my usual English and Literature, I think I will get them back tomorrow…gonna pray hard.

Ah well, saw Mr Gana during Chinese period and he told me that the presentation will most likely be cancelled cos there is not enough assembly time slots. Even more disappointment, after all the time we spent doing the slideshow and well, frankly, I was more worried about the prospects of not having DREAMS 6 cos we need(do we?) to have the presentation so that there will be DREAMS 6 next year(or next time). And that presentation means more than just a presentation to me, if you know what I mean then that’s good but if not, then nvm. And I can’t wait for the chalet!!counting down: 4 months+ till Dec 21st..got the graduation day to get look forward to(okay, not really, on the contrary, I am dreading it actually),the Os hurdle to cross, a prom to go to before the long awaited chalet..Which reminds me, xiaodennis owes us a gathering!! HAHA.cos he was gonna to hold one right after DREAMS 5 finished but it clashed with all of our schedules(with the MFGG cf and all) so turned out he didn’t hold one in the end. I miss dreams 5, along with the 18 dynamic, lame,crazy and amazing people inside, now it seems like I cannot imagine life without them. Jie predicted when we were going home on Sunday that if I were to do 1 thing all over again, it will be dreams 5, no questions. And yea, she’s right la. Need to distract myself from daydreaming and concentrate on mugging/studying!!! Memories..need to be hidden somewhere for awhile…till I have the time to reminisce and daydream all I want. Being soo emo and sensitive these few days, don’t know what’s wrong with me…

End of year..just realized I need to buy lots of pressies…
Farewell pressies for teachers and juniors.
Christmas pressies for fellow dreamers.
Got to save up.hehe.

i am not gonna give up just yet...try me.


Tomorrow school’s gonna start and most probably, we are gonna to get our results back, but I still can’t wait for it to start(yeah, I can’t believe I am saying this either). To go back to our normal routine of lessons and the rest of the stuff, I realized, I like things, pre-prelims. I guess comfort of routines? I don’t know la, I just can’t wait for things to get back to normal, even if it is only for a month.

I think I have to stop myself from thinking too much or second guessing everyone else’s actions if not someone is bound to get hurt in the end. Argh! I am so confused! I don’t know what to think anymore! Damn, I don’t even know the right thing to do anymore, or rather, I don’t even know what am I doing anymore. If you guys are angry at me or I did something wrong unknowningly, scold me, hantam me or whatever, just don’t ignore me. It’s torturing you know…

Last day of slacking, so, last minute made plans to go out with Jie today. We went to cine to watch “No reservations”..yup..again! But you know, different people, different atmosphere. Jie said I was as crazy as Da cos Da also went to watch Rush Hour 3 twice. Ah well…guides had always been crazy, thus producing crazy people =). But, we meet up at 11:30am at sumerset mrt..way too early and the cinema was not open yet so had to walk walk around abit till 12+nn or something. After buying the tickets, we went off to taka to walk till our 1:10pm movie started, and Jie was telling me that she and Da forgot how they manage to get themselves into camp FLAG.haha. funny people. Jie treated me to popcorn(sweet! =)yay!) and drinks. Happy! After the movie, we rushed off to taka..to eat yet again, this time it was seoul garden! HAHA. What greedy pigs we are..wait..let me rephrase it…we were having some sort of a food marathon today..yeah..that’s better. We ate from 2:30-6pm..and I reached home at around 6:30pm..1 ½ hours late for my curfew(cos mum set my curfew at 5pm today)but I didn’t get scolding…..hehe. Oh, we only took 1 picture today.

This ends my beautiful, wonderful and unique slacker days. I have to thank Kamini, Shimama,Xinyi,Addie, Momo and Jie for making them wonderful(okay, sounded like an emmy winning thank you speech or something but nvm)=).Thanks guys.

yours truly, laid back style ;)

all these moments, they can't last forever, but they are the ones that counts.

First, I like to declare these 3 days(Yesterday, today and tomorrow)Putri’s slacker days(kapok from Andreas de.haha), im not gonna to so much as to touch any books. Im gonna slack, slack and slack some more…before gearing up for the big Os. But mum’s breathing down my throat about the results and going out to study.

Had lots of fun during these 2 days, yesterday(Ahh…yes.. SATURS-DAY..I know) I went out with Kamini and Shiyama to go to the Esplanade to eat our potluck picnic, it was our first time doing this kinda thing so it was pretty fun la. Haha, that shiyama arh, she’s a road idiot(really!not kidding!), she took the bus from the wrong direction and ending up going to yio chu kang instead of bishan, I think it almost made Kamini’s blood boil cos Kamini was waiting for her to go to Esplanade together. Haha. And Kamini and I know what to buy for her 21st/22nd birthday(cos you see, we can only afford that thing when we reach that age, I hope.), a hp with a GPS navigator so that she won’t get lost when she goes out to meet us and since we are gonna to be her long-term friends (I hope)and we are gonna to go out lots so we better not suffer then.haha.soo bad hor. Okay, back to Esplanade, we reached there at around 4:30pm and the view was beautiful! The menu was Shiyama’s fried rice( not bad at all!), Kamini’s appetizers( nuggets, hashbrowns and hotdogs) and of cos, yours truly’s (famous)cupcakes. Lol. While we were eating, strangers were staring at our food, so I have a feeling that we were tempting them(especially the joggers who are determined to lose weight.HAHA). And we had a very nice view( the merlion and the river at one side and our future prom place, Marina Mandarin at the other side).After our picnic,we went to check out Marina Mandarin and let me tell you, its damn romantic! All dark and dim with candles everywhere. After that we went off to Marina square to look for birthday presents for my bus partner, Xinyi, Edith and Da and went for a little bit of shopping( I’m soo happy I finally got them!). After that, went off to meet my family to eat dinner at shaw house but I was soo tired I could barely eat. Ah yes, let me explain SATURS-DAY to you guys, cos we were discussing the menu for Saturday on Thursday at the 5G classroom after our papers(we were supposed to be studying XD) and I think I got soo blur till I added a “s” in Saturday, hence, SATURS-DAY. =D. And I think cos of the last outing with Edith , my photography skills improved =D

And then today, went to meet Momo, Addie and Xinyi to watch “No Reservations “ to celebrate Xinyi’s birthday at J8 there. HAHA. Oh ya, I just realized that this is the 2nd time that someone helped me buy movie tickets, soo sweet! Thanx Addie! The movie was very heartwarming, touching and funny. And I never expected to have soo much fun, really! Before the movie started, there was this commercial on this movie called “stardust” mah, and when I saw the title after the commercial ended, I was laughing away..cos Addie’s e-mail add so qiao got “stardust” inside.haha..yeah.. I am lame. And, I also expected to see some crazy cooking in the movie but it didn’t happen..if not..I would have laughed even harder. But the funniest thing, happened after the movie, Momo was queuing up at the toilet behind me but she didn’t realize I was in front of her till I turned behind. Actually, I didn’t know she was behind me also la..haha. Let’s go out again sometime! After the Os?

Random though: Today is a good day for campfire, rather, tonight is a good night to have a campfire. The weather condition is really suitable, yeah..was thinking about it while I was waiting for the bus..and I was thinking of all the meetings I had at the GGS HQ and the SSA. Those times where I woke up at a really insane time(7:30am) for the meetings. And also, about that particular delicious dinner consisting of chili egg and chicken which I didn’t have enough time to eat( cos we had to change into our guides full-u within 5 minutes) during dreams5 on the 7th day before the campfire started.

Pictures will be up..soon!

I got my laptop back(and the keyboard is still insane!) just in time for the end of prelims, prefect timing =D.

Prelims was insanely stressed and frustrating, the whole hall practically cheered when mrs quek announced the end of lit paper 2.haha. I think everyone buay tahan already, since this week, lots of people fell ill. And after prelims today,jz went straight home and sleep, to make up for all that late night cramming. Now, all we have to do is wait, and wait and wait for the results to come out..next Tuesday?But the weight and stress of prelims still on my shoulder, feeling emo, tired, not in the mood to talk and my shoulders feels heavy. Now, I have the presentation to look forward to, even though god knows when the “FINALLY! Presentation day!” will come. Hopefully, soon.

I admit it, im tired. I don’t know where everything gone, the chemistry, the laughter, the super lame jokes, all that crapping and I wanna find it all back. It’s the first time I ever felt this way for something and it’s scary. I can say we are back virtual strangers now, before the dreams5 journey began, I don’t know what to do about it, to make it better…at least a lil bit and if I can, I will do anything to make it better. The glue that held us together is gone, so, we are gonna need to rely on ourselves to keep it alive, question is..do we want to? Yes, must tell myself to hang in there, cos something will happen to make it all worthwhile, I know something will.

I find it such a waste that I am only able to get to know my sec 4s juniors only this year, after all we have technically known each other since they were in sec 1, wasted 3 years. Okay la, not really..since the june training camp was the starting point cos I can still remember during the last day, romaine, jie and I were fooling around and romaine became the “sleeping bag stealer”. Very LOL lor.Then there was the speech day this year,man, the sarcastic jokes. There is only about 1 month left in school and then the Os and an end to a beautiful chapter of my life. 1 month, not enough time to wrap everything up and I can’t bear to leave mf. 5 years was tough but I have soo many memories in all the 3 campuses….

Going out tmr and on sun.yay!

Tomorrow’s the start of battle, round 2. I think I am prepared for it, cos had been studying with Xinyi(s) for the past 2 days at KBCC there and today we had a study group date(sorta la) at KBCC and there was the two xinyi(s), priya, nurliza(right?) and me. It is a sanctuary in the morning man, waking up at an ungodly hour of 8:30am for it is worth it for the peace and quiet. A good place to think, definitely. We were studying Maths, Maths and more Maths till we all went nuts. It was quite fun, actually. I figured, I never get a chance to sleep in during the weekends, but so far, the Saturdays im sacrificing for are worth it.

And, I jz realized, I am a “Saturdays 9-1pm” person. Me and 2 bunch of people, my 05/06 guides committee COH-ers and my fellow dreamers, we are “Saturdays 9-1pm” people. Haha..I know…lame la. But I realized that people tend to like to meet during Saturdays from 9am-1pm to have meetings, for some reason. LOL. I’m serious! Cos Guides used to have meetings on Saturdays back in the ole days and guess what? It was from 9am-1pm.HAHA.I guess…auspicious hours?

I though I could get back to normal and you know, Get’cha Head In The Game to prepare for the BIG and DREADED Os soon but still thinking about it. I still can’t help myself. More than that, Mawai had been coming back. Mawai= mountain climbing, mud volleyball, the most divine camp bed I’ve ever slept in, singing into the night(and long after we sleep), nature hike(leeches!), fruit farm(fresh, divine durians!), firefly watching and ghost spotting(scary,kay? The guide was like “This is the site where the Japanese got killed(or smthing), if you spot any ghost, please don’t tell me” and I was way too afraid to look up), the dogs(they had the cutest names ever but im scared of them.hehe), the toilet privilege(we could bath as long as we wanted cos there was soo little girls =D). But I don’t know where the pictures went even though I vividly remember taking the standard banner picture during the last day.

“peanut peanut butter…jelly!”

Then our universal stadios trip to the US last year..

The xmas tree's cool =D

My mum's birthday.last year too.sweet!

The most recent one...all of us are acting... CUTE! XD

I’ve been doing history notes since like forever(okay..I am exaggerating..but since like last Friday or something) and still doing….and I’ve only finished my CHINA notes, lost my RUSSIA notes(damn it! Must redo! NO TIME!)and doing the scary NAZI notes. And I’m using my mum’s laptop cos my keyboard had gone wacko again. GREAT! And she’s coming back tonight…so, I have no idea how to finish them. Been meaning to touch the dreaded Maths and Science but only touched it…a little..soo far...I want to get prelims over and done with! ARGH!

I actually enjoyed my Maths tution today, strange huh? Cos well, they were discussing names and boys and they were like thinking of ideas of how to avoid the guys during the 1st day(cos the girls in my class come from an all girls’ school, you see…)of school next year..haha..and I was actually thanking god I don’t have that kinda problem anymore. LOL. Funny la they all, guys are actually not all that bad, of cos, I am not gonna tell them, let them find out for themselves..hehe. Nice surprise or shock, you choose =). It will be “Welcome to the world to Lame-ness” and be sure not to get too “overdosed”.haha. Which reminds me, I’ve history (again!)tomorrow, same time, same place and then Maths(again!)at the Toa Payoh place there…and then I will go home to revise Chem I guess?Must get into the study mentality! Jie says from the looks of things, I haven’t been mugging..haha..quite true la..cos still got time to look through old pictures. And that reminds me, I still haven’t found Nurul that batch the ROD pictures..it went MIA..how..NICE...

I find myself missing guides, more specifically, campfires these few days..all that screaming at the top of my lungs ,singing loudly, dancing, partying, going crazy, you get the picture. Maybe I need to distress and campfire maybe just be the cure =). Well..you can take a girl out of guides but you can’t take a guide out of the girl.It is…after all…in the blood.