And the 2nd video is out on youtube =D. This time is the video which Andreas took after we finish eating on our ice gunung, also on the 8th day. Andreas say she have more videos in her home computer..haha..and I thought we only have the hongdou video left.lol.So, brace yourself, dreamers!



These videos are seriously making me miss dreams 5.
I guess, especially this one. What you don’t see in this video is that when mingxuan was in the toilet, we all wanted to run away so that we wouldn’t have to pay for our desserts and he will end up panicking and end up paying for our desserts. HAHA.soo evil of us,right? But being the kind souls we all are, we didn’t run away.haha.And also, what you don’t see is Andreas and Bryan camwhoring away on Andreas’s phone. I can still remember all of us were waiting for them at the dessert house so that we can order the dessert but they keep taking pictures every few metres so it took them forever to get there.Everything seems like it happened yesterday, if only it did.

I…can give you Gatsby Gatsby. XD
i miss singing this too. that's gonna be nuts when i say this.
“I am dreaming of a true love’s kiss”…haha.enchanted crazy.

16(maybe im gonna to die) to go ,2 down.

I’ve learnt a lot about well, almost everything this year. But mainly about life, friendship and unity. The reason why I love going to camp and those crazy expeditions is that in the adversity of some situations where you go full force out alone, you learn how to be independent cos it’s you against the world. As contradicting as this sounds, but you also learn how to work as a team, trust your team-mates with your life, basically. Then, in expeditions, you get to learn how to think for yourself, stand up to what you believe for, stand in front of a crowd and do stuff you never though you never do and you do things that you would have thought is beyond your capabilities. In my expedition, lessons that really got inside my head was being initiative, be enthusiastic in whatever you do and NEVER NEVER judge a book by its cover because you might miss a treasure.ohana means family. Family means nobody gets left behind or forgotten, you know.

They also bring out the best in you and you can do the craziest, stupidest, lamest and bravest things without feeling too self-conscious. Hardship bond people together, that’s a fact, in any situation so you will also end up being friends…with the most unexpected people. I’ve been tempted(a few times) to throw a number of people into the bumboat so that they can understand…this.

Friendship, I’ve learnt a lot too. The more time you spend together, the more things you have to talk about, that’s logic.
Unity=5G.

Almost 2am, okay,anw, today I was being a lazy pig and stayed home all day while the rest of my family went out. Tia got her hair highlighted(cool!) so maybe next time I should do it too and Fran cut her hair. Was made to watch wildthorn berry just now cos Fran didn’t want to give me the remote but no “remote fight” came out of it if not both of us would have gotten killed man.

Cockroach, frogs, lizards and chipmunks are damn comedy man.(no offence to anyone)
Still 17 to go(really die) and 1 down.




Right now, I am all over the place.
And I have this urge to go the beach to shout and scream and think and have those long girl talks.
And also to lie down on the sand and simply admire the stars in the night sky.
And enjoy the company and the comfortable silence.
A long walk talking and a sleepover won’t hurt either.

But right now, there is a need to sort out my really confused mind, there is no black or white now, everything is all greyish, well, not really cos well…I am thinking generally…as in everything is mixed together. Ahh…forget it.Either way, I don't know what to think anymore.

The only way I can put everything across is….
“People,arise!The world is dead!” and “Stand”. What a contradiction.

And you wonder why I have this yearning to jump on the bumboat back to PBP….
THIS is why. Need I say more?

Dulce et decorum est pro patria mori.-I guess it’s like this bah. What a lie.

isit soo hard to do what you are suppose to do?

Me with 5G's prom queen and king,Shiyama and Mervin

They also been with me for 5 years now.=D

shiyama and I

I will miss sitting next to her man.

Love this shot!

cheryl and I.yay! we finally took the pics!

nurul and I.love her!

And so we are famous…should be a pretty nice surprise for everyone. I know, people post videos on youtube all the time,I should not be shocked but the thing is….

We ourselves haven’t even seen it yet!And Alan didn’t tell us about this either(btw,he is soo dead when I see him during the steamboat dinner).

I think all my (smart)ELs will be laughing their heads off now cos they agreed to dance both with us but end up dancing none(they were dancing at the sidelines) so their faces are not on the video. But seriously, I haven’t gotten over the shock yet. Andreas wants our hongdou and that(after ice gunung..think Gatsby boy as the main lead)videos to be posted up too…I surrender. My dreams5 leaders are just too good man(no, no sarcasm intended).

But frankly, I really miss dancing hongdou and s’pore town, it had been ages since I had dance both. The last time we danced was in June..during MFGG’s campfire. And I remember chinhow drawing the dance steps in paint during 1 particular computer lesson.nostalgia.

Mac cookies wise, Andreas just solved the mystery for us. It is because we submitted our orders after the submission date so we couldn’t get our hands on the mac cookies.So, our fault, I guess bah, I just wished they were a little kinder.

PROM IS 6 HOURS AWAY!!!!and it's gonna rain.

OMG!OMG!OMG!
GUESS WHAT?
I FOUND OUR SINGAPORE TOWN VIDEO…on YOUTUBE!

I got damn shock okay…my heart is still beating soo damn fast and my feet are still shaking.
I was browsing through youtube and searching Singapore town just for fun and there was the video.OMG! and it is viewed 27 times already.But no hongdou…so..thank god.



Have been sleeping at 3 or 4am these past few days cos I was watching romantic princess on youtube =).That show featuring wu zun and zhang shao han, it’s so funny, they fight, they fall in love and they try to deny it in front of her grandfather but to no avail-long story but you guys should watch it.

Anyway, Lianyi and Peckhui went off to Taiwan le, lucky birds…anticipating their return, really. Then I can hear more stories..hehe. Chu will also be going off to Japan in 3 days, another lucky bird, this time she will be going for the JEP again. Haha..i’m like reporting where everyone is going, ah well, this is the first time(I think)that I will not be going anywhere far-fetched during a major holiday. 10 days with the mozzies, delicious indo food, tons of arcade games(at dunia fantasie I think),more cable tv, that small ice cream thing, ice skating, more shopping, swimming-yeah..getting quite interesting.

But the main point is…TOMORROW IS PROM NIGHT!!!

19th November seem to be THE night for prom night for everyone, somehow the organizers for the proms link 19th November to prom for some reason. Speaking of numbers, I am still obsessed with the number 5, for obvious reasons =) And with that, I am still addicted to rascal flatts, I’ve got Lester to thank for with my addiction.HAHA.And I seriously got to buy their albums man.

And speaking of songs, they represent memories(eh, I think I did a compo on this before) so they become more than just songs. I can’t listen to hongdou without envisioning the white tiled floor of the girls’ dorm, tonghua without remembering the 2006 guides campfire, Singapore town without remembering the countless rehearsals and dancing queen without envisioning castan and gang dancing to it. They are just special songs la. There are more songs..but..hehe..will be daylight by the time I finish and you guys will be sleeping.

First off,

Happy belated birthday Ah Fang!
Haha. I remember calling you that when we were in primary school, and you kinda hated it but nonetheless that name still remind me of you XD. I hope you received tons of pressies and ate a lot of cake and had a good dinner. And I know you are touched.don't cry kay? hehe.

Secondly,

I will be Jakarta from the 8th -18th of December.yay! perfect timing! And I am excited..even though I have no idea why.

Thirdly,
Remember, you guys will always have a special place in my heart,nothing and no one can change that.let the flame burn on.

Just finished talking to miaomiao on msn about an hour ago and it was soo lame and soo fun. We haven’t been this lame in ages man. It went like this…

Miao:if it rain, I will run back to my house
Me:the camp is in school?
Miao:nope.pasir ris.
Me:wah.run from pasir ris to amk.
Miao: yup.the Singapore marathon
Me: you will surely get 1st place de, 2nd and 3rd place will go to the air.

And then we were also joking about the word “laming”, a word he invented a few seconds ago and he asked me to check the dictionary to find the word and I told him the word was there,with his “daming” inside there too-Mr Lim Yikai. Well..he will be going to camp from tomorrow till Sunday so crapping will resume then. And I think I got influenced by him during dreams 5.HAHA

And have we done with War at last
Well, we’ve been two lucky devils both.
And there’s no need of pledge or oath
To bind our lovely friendship fast,
By firmer stuff
Close bound enough.

By wire and wood and stake we’re bound.
By Fricourt and by Festubert.
By whipping rain,by the sun’s glare,
By all the misery and loud sound,
By a Spring day,
By Picard clay.

Show me the two so closely bound
As we,by the wet bond of blood,
By friendship,blossoming from mud
By Death:we faced him,and we found
Beauty in Death,
In dead men breath.
-Robert Graves
Kinda remind you of something doesn’t it?no..not war..even though this is a war poem.

Since we cannot find when marina bay that row of steamboat restaurants will close, I think Andreas will be going to go down there and ask (your sacrifice will be worth it =D ). And I am praying hard it wouldn’t soo suay close in December. And.. guides cookies-wise, actually I knew about the mac cookies going out of stock since last month, cos I remembered yulei eating her mint cookie during our last tution together(and trying to tempt me to eat it too) and telling me about the mac cookies(so, please don’t start throwing stones at me). I have a feeling, it’s got something to do with biaseness(as in they give the cookies to the top schools first) cos Frances brought home 4 tins of mac and a tin of choco cookies early this month, strange huh? That she can have 4 tins and we have none . Why don’t the stupid guides house just meet their number of orders for mac cookies and make life easier for everyone, I have no idea. But, really, no use wasting our breath on them-not worth it.

I almost had a heart attack just now…
I though….
I though…
But it’s all back to normal now and it’s a relief.
But, really, since dreams 5, I don’t know what the heck normal is anymore.

Tia’s graduation night(no, not the prom) is tomorrow and mum and Fran will be going, meanwhile, Kamini and Shiyama will be at my house watching movies!

Oh ya, beach with Xinyi on Saturday! Soo excited! And I will be going to Caroline’s house soon, late November? I am soo gonna get killed for going out almost every day la.5G chalet will be on the 5th-7th of December, BBQ on the 6th .Kamini’s “open house” on the 1st. Jakarta still no idea when, I kinda also forgot when is my grandma’s birthday.heh.

Random though: most of the Indonesians from mf lives near the Thomson-newton area, just realized it today,kinda slow la but just realized that I got to know most of them from my bus(as in we take the same bus to school and back home) =).

I just want to say..I really HATE guides politics.
Been in it for 2 years(my committee and Jolene’s committee)and it drives me absolutely nuts. It has that stupid power to tear people apart, I swear it does. And the emotional part of it, pretty much sucks the most, people get hurt here and there, friendships are broken. But if your acting is good, people won’t know, it’s all in the acting to protect your reputation. What I know, I will also keep my mouth shut about it.
I am praying no sec 1 and 2 juniors are reading this…they can’t know about this…yet.

Oh yes, I pon tprawks along with the gang…soo rebellious of us. =) and I am reading my sis clique’s blog, this is how bored I am.And Tia’s prom will be held at the Marriot. And they will be having shark fin in one of their course-I think.




DREAMS 5 Steamboat dinner!!! Guides farewell!!!! 5G chalet!!!

Haha…all these will happen in December and I can’t wait, mainly cos 2 of them signify a reunion, a long awaited at that and my class’s chalet, well, it will the LAST class chalet so it’s also very important.

But I have this gut feeling that I will not be able to make it to Yusheng’s BBQ and my class’s chalet since I think I will be Jakarta by then celebrating my grandma’s birthday or maybe I will be able to make it to the BBQ but not to the chalet.

And Cheryl wanna have to a Guides shopping trip, which means that the sec 4s and I go shopping I guess.haha. it will be interesting mainly cos that never happened before and it will be in Jan so until then, let’s see la. And we will be going out, yay!

Speaking of farewell, I sneak in to the guides meeting today and I came in at the “right” time cos they were discussing farewell..haha. Of cos being the smart juniors they are, they didn’t disclose anything so no inside information for you guys, we will just have to get surprised. And I really really really hope all the sec 4s can come to the farewell la, so that we can take the pictures we were supposed to take during graduation day. And I haven’t seen the sec 4s as a batch in a long time.

Steamboat dinner, this one, by hook or by crook I will be there, even if that means begging my mum for an air ticket to go back to Singapore, that it if I am still in Jakarta then. I think Andreas also cannot wait for this to happen too cos she got soo excited till she sent me a friendster comment(okay, can hear her going after me le) =D. But it’s understandable la, I have been waiting for happen for a long time, how could you not be excited over a reunion? Man, this steamboat dinner mean that we had come a full circle(sort of) cos in January this year, we also had one for Ms Ng’s farewell and next month, we will be having one for the DREAMS 5 reunion.

Random though: I was reading through my old e-mails and in one of them, Atikah said this: “I will be the road marshall for the royal couple! Prince William is mine!”.HAHAHAHA.my god! And the best thing is that she wrote it in a guides e-mail cos before that she also settled some stuff before writing this, soo damn lame and funny la she.

And I miss campfire soo much!!!

Its 2am yet again.Just got back from watching “the game plan” a few hours ago with mum and sisters at Plaza Singapura.I must say, its good and I wanna watch “Enchanted”!!!

Going back to school today had been pretty fun and really heartwarming. Met up with Kamini at the library and we started crapping in the library and we were laughing away cos I was telling her what happened at the night safari on Friday. Things like DK saying “man! It’s dark!” when we were walking at the trail and everyone’s reply to him was “It’s the NIGHT safari la! Of cos it dark!” and the guys waving the Japanese girls who actually waved back, my god. Which reminds me of something else, cos there was this section where we had to close 1 door before the other door can open and the guys were saying it was the Nazi’s “Final Solution”. Seriously la, they were crapping all night long man. Ms Balan treated us to supper, it was soo nice of her la! I remembered we were looking at the menu and Chu ying, Shiyama and I wanted to order from the plain prata list and Ms Balan went to cover up all the cheap lists(as in the $0.60-$2.50) lists and asked us to order from the quite expensive list. HAHA. The 4 of us girls were sitting together while the guys split themselves up between 2 tables. Back to Kamini, we then went off to eat breakfast which was when we saw Xinyi, Momo and Addie(okay, actually, we saw them at the library already..hehe) and as usual, Xinyi went over to our table and talk some more. To cut the long story short, after all the cam-whoring in and all that talking(I think I talked till my throat went dry XD), Kamini and I went off to the Bishan library to borrow books to ease our boredom at home, cos you know, after the Os, after all that stress, and suddenly you have nothing to do, you will feel kinda aimless. Haha…as for the heartwarming bit, I think I will keep it to myself la but I really appreciate today cos things like these, don’t happen everyday=D

Btw…I think..
Saturday-beach with Xinyi / Kamini’s deepavali party.
15th dec-out with Andreas, Miaomiao and Lianyi?

Its 2am and I am still not asleep, ah well, typical holiday behavior. Just realized that I will be very busy this week and there is still more plans to go out. I am so gonna have a super gigantic hole in my pocket and my wallet will need to go on a diet man.

Today-meeting kamini at school at 10:30am.
Tomorrow-meeting Xinyi at school to settle some stuff.
Wednesday-going out to Little India with Kamini and Shiyama.
Thursday-movie marathon at my place.
Friday-Escape theme park with Kamini,Shiyama and Xinyi.

Then, there is plans to go out with Miaomiao,Andreas and Lianyi and the prom and the DREAMS 5 reunion-sort of since we will be having a steamboat dinner cos all the chalets on that day were booked full and the BBQ pit will not be avaliable too.Just hope I wouldn’t get killed by my mum cos she will start saying what I have too much cash to spend that sorta thing.

Went shopping with mum and stephy today at Wisma today and I found my prom dress, yes! Finally! Haha..can start lazing around till the prom date already. I’ve already made plans to do pedicure and manicure with Kamini and Shiyama. Not really planning to do anything to my hair la-anyone got any suggestions? Accessories-wise, I think with soo many girls in the house, I can kapok a little of my mum’s and my sisters’ accessories to use, although Tia’s prom will be on the same date as mine except that hers will be at somewhere else(yeah, I forgot where.haha).I think that kinda settles it bah.

Life always gives us exactly the teacher we need at every moment. This includes every mosquito, every misfortune, every red light, every traffic jam, every obnoxious supervisor (or employee), every illness, every loss, every moment of joy or depression, every addiction, every piece of garbage, every breath. Every moment is the guru.
-Joko Beck

When I can across this quote, I was laughing. If you guessed it right, it would be about the mosquito bit. Haha, if I were the one who invented this quote, I think I would have added in the rooster and the chicken bit but that’s just because of my own experience. =) And of cos, it made me appreciate those mosquitoes too.

Another one.

Could we change our attitude, we should not only see life differently, but life itself would come to be different. Life would undergo a change of appearance because we ourselves had undergone a change of attitude.
-Katherine Mansfield

that's why cliches will be cliches till you've experienced them I guess.


Okay guys.almost 3 now, I think I will be going off to bed.
Chimos!

When you have absolutely nothing to do…you think.Well…that’s what I do.

Blame it on the fact that we literature students think too much..well..we have to, dig deep into the poem to find the meaning, trying to guess what the poet is thinking of while he is writing the poem and find the double meaning of it or more often than not, the paradox or the oxymoron of it(okay,it’s almost the same thing).But I shall not bore you with the nuts and bolts of Literature, it’s a subject you can easily fall in love with.

What I have been thinking about these few days..is 5G..my utterly loveable class(yes, of cos I am biased about this =) ).I will miss them soo much. They make class really very interesting-if not I think I would have died of boredom a long time ago.And looking through my old class pictures, I just realized quite a number of them had been in the same class with me since sec 1(11 of the 1F’03 people are in my class now..soo cool!), that’s quite unbelievable cos there is only 25 people in my class. The guys maybe childish most of the times but it can be surprising how they can be a gentleman at times.Besides, their crazy antics are damn funny la and it adds up to the funny-ness when they start inventing something and a perfectly normal song turns wacky. And there is our recess disco-which is well…illegally but we do it anyway, blasting music from DK’s ipod…till the teacher comes that is. And many many other things that will seem utterly stupid and childish if I type them here but to me make perfect sense. Kamini tells me she is envious of my class and only now do I get why. I’m not bragging here but I think my class have a pretty good bond(must be from those physics lessons.HAHA.)and we are pretty much united. I have gotten soo used to seeing them everyday for the past 4/5 years that the feeling is pretty much weird now. Sure, we will have more class outings in the future but that can’t be compared to sitting in class with them everyday from 7:15am-4:30pm. Yet another thing I had taken for granted..you know the saying from the song, before it’s too late, “nothing is real till it’s gone”.

I hereby declare the Os OFFICALLY OVER[at least for me la]!!!!
OPEN UP YOUR CHAMPAGNE EVERYONE! LETS PARTY!

Having 3 papers in a day can seriously kill you and it’s bad when 2 of them are literature papers. My brains are overfried now after spending 1 whole day in school-from 7:30am-6pm..really bad. Anyway, literature was quite okay la, the hall was like soo ulu, I think there were only 3 classes in there. And the best thing was during paper 1, for the unseen poem, a poem I studied before came out so it was soo damn cool la. Paper 2..they gave “The greatest gift” as the passage based question..and asked how was the opening striking and asked about another story which also have a striking opening so it was quite good I guess? The best part came after the Os, everyone was like cheering like some mad people but its normal, I am guessing that it will happen on the 13th also..with the last bio paper 1 and POA paper 1.But doesn’t it make you kinda sad at the same time, since it will be the LAST TIME you are technically a student of mf.Leaving behind all those great memories, which in my case will be 5G’07,guides and dreams 5. Shiyama and I went round the school, looking at it one last time, and I also realized, in this 2 years, soo much memories had been created in this new school building, the most significant one being the hall followed by that area outside the library and the foyer area.

To be frank, the weirdest thing right now is not mugging for exams, strange as it sounds, I will have to get used to the new routine of not falling asleep with a textbook beside me and waking up late,which should be easy.haha. Suddenly, all the mugging stops and the pile of books beside me become useless[and they were like my bible days before.heh].The temptation to burn all my books away are very big though. I think I have textbooks from sec 2 that haven’t been thrown away yet, my very own tower of textbooks still collecting dust at home. Bravo.Right?

I shall continue my mission to eliminate. Why didn’t anyone tell me it was damn hard to eliminate the thoughts? If only it was as simple as pressing the delete button.yea right. If it was that easy, I would have done it ages ago. Everything seems to remind me of the times that we had together. Reminisce.nostalgia.I’m just plain bad at forgetting. Maybe I just need 1 day with all of you.yes.ALL.and you can call me plain selfish but it’s become a yearning lately.but if I can never forget it no matter how hard I try…thank you. More than I care to admit it out loud, I do miss everything. Looks like it’s not working.



I am trying to psyche myself not to think about it anymore, eliminate the thoughts from my mind. What’s past is the past, traces of it can still be seen in this present but it doesn’t do any good. So, eliminate.eliminate and eliminate.

I got a full blown suan-ing by Shiyama and Kamini today during breakfast, about of all things, dreams 5.haha. I really should not have told them soo much stories.LOL. Shiyama was like saying, “next time, your daughter’s name will be Riau and your son’s name will be Pedra Branca(where did this come from?she must be reading too much D&D.haha)”. And we were talking about Kamini and Shiyama being an English teacher, Zakiah being a dance teacher and me being discipline head(okay, it was a joke la).Kamini was like, “next time, you can exile your students to Riau Islands! What did Jeff say when he want to send them to exile island arh?Like you know, instead of detention, can exile them to Riau Islands instead.” And also,she was saying on Monday, I can wear a tee that say, “I am a DREAMS 5 survivor”, Tuesday, “dreaming of dreamers worldwide”,Wednesday, “start dreaming!” ,Thursday, “start daydreaming about dreaming!”etc . Soo damn lame la. And I almost fell off my chair laughing man. Oh, and the other day, Shiyama was saying that I can enlarge my dreams 5 certificate and put it on my bedside and make it into a bedsheet, a pillow and booster case and a blanklet. There is more la, but I forgot.hehe. So, you see, I hang out with a bunch of super suan-er friends =D. But I suan Shiyama back by playing the Gatsby song and talking about D5(which btw, is NOT dreams 5).HAHA.

LAST 3 PAPERS tomorrow.
And the Os…are…OFFICALLY OVER!
Off to mug for my dear lit XD

Oh ya..almost forgot about this…wanted to blog about this but didn’t have any laptop to blog at that time.

Which one should I choose? I’ve decided to remain neutral but I think I will get killed if I remain neutral la. I will be very happy if they call for a truce but that will be years to come, that, I know very clearly.

Who’s the Jedis and who’s The Dark Forces? Try to figure this out yourself.haha. Anw..soo Star Wars right?hehe.



I finally got my laptop now and now it’s really back to working order(the keyboard doesn’t go all insane anymore =) ).I MISSED MY LAPTOP!!haha. I’ve got like 108 e-mails the moment I opened my inbox, I think? Got pretty shocked la and some of those e-mails were unexpected to say the least.lol. I’m touched.haha.

The Os are gonna to be OVER next Tuesday! Everyone, open up your champagne bottles and start spraying it around cos it’s time to celebrate! The rest of the papers are humanities paper, okay, there is 1 more science paper but I think I will too busy mugging for lit to study for science paper 1.HAHA.Just need to hope my luck will be as good as my luck for that paper in prelims. =)

I realized something, while I was chatting with Kamini after our physics paper the other day. I really got very lucky for my expedition, really really lucky. It was like it was a perfect expedition. Tons of sweet memories and very little of the bad ones, so, we were really lucky in that sense, you know?And no matter the age gap between the 19 of us, we still got along great. It just makes me appreciate dreams 5 more, you know? Cos sometimes I feel that I take this perfect expedition for granted. Another thing, Shiyama said that 20 years down the road, if I see anyone of my good friends and fellow dreamers, I will shout their names across the street to get their attention.HAHA. suan me la she, but I think I will do that?hehe.

I feel like I am saving everything up for later, maybe cos now need to concentrate on the Os. All that talking, crapping, lame-ing and talking about everything and anything under the sun.You can call me crazy but sometimes I don’t feel comfortable talking in school-like it’s not the right place to talk, you know? Cos it’s like we are breaking some status quo or something.But what I learnt is all we need to do the keep the trust and the faith going. Okay, what the hell am I crapping about?

Andreas,Addie and Lianyi..when are we gonna to finally go out? Set a date, quick! Maybe end November or something?Sat?When are you guys free?
Edith,Jie and Da..haha..the teenage bash is on! I won’t pengseh you guys de la..cos the zoo trip is postponed..hehe. And when’s seoul garden arh?
Xinyi!! The beach!!!we must set a date, haha.