I am in truly big trouble. mum suddenly told me that we would be going back on saturday and won't be back till the 8th so that we can celebrate my grandma's birthday over there. and she refuse to let me come back alone cos the air ticket is expensive.

but i've got the MINDS meeting on the 5th/6th night which i think i must attend no matter what. then YA day on the 6th morning-promised kathy already. No idea when camp briefing is gonna to be but i think should be around next week also.

As a result...my schedule is all messed up.crap.and i don't know how to make it back in time yet have a chance to go back at the same time.

Anyhow, I think i screw up my philosophy paper too, economics on wednesday.last paper.finally.last paper! then its FREEDOM!

i don't want to move away from a place i've grown up in.
a place i call home.even though it really isn't(not in my passport anyway).

actually, i'm really worried about stephy-the rest of us can survive, i want her to spend her primary and secondary school life in SCGS. so that she will grow up in the environment which we can relate to-the singapore school system. however much i complained about it, it is the place that i found my first love-guides among other things. i had-wish i still have a love-hate relationship with the system.

murphy's law had gone to the extreme this time.

maybe going back to jakarta from the 26th of nov-before 9th december since i have nothing to do. then last 2 weeks of december maybe?

Actually, come to think about it, we are all after the same thing.
a place where we can escape reality.something that is so magical that is graceful and beautiful in our eyes.
as mouth in OTH put it "if i close my eyes,you could be talking about sports".
with the exception that we express it in different ways.
some find it in the arts, sports, i find that in UG.
you can also call it a calling.


i never though i could see the words "dreams5 handbook" in my e-mails again after last year. as i said, at some point of time, you just stop hoping and move on with your life. nonethless, these people still make you feel emotional. i hope i did though, move on i mean.

this is why.

maths paper sucked today too.eating 6 bitter pills at 1 go almost killed me too(and it will be like that for the next 5 days).and i hate it that my face is in a very bad shape.

1 down.3 to go.

I'm in an holiday mood...but it's not holiday yet.
at least not for the next 3 weeks.then its FREEDOM!

then again, I don't think so, but i would be doing the things i love so its fine. they will put me in a happy happy mood. :D i can forsee tons of meetings with the "usual" emotional rollarcoaster ride ahead. I am talking about the MINDS project.haha.what were you guys thinking?

Went to IKEA to study with Edith yesterday, never though i could study there till yesterday since it is not the first place i think of when i want to study outside. Surprisely, it was a not bad place to study, the environment and food is pretty good, even though it is expensive but worth it. While studying/crapping there, we drinks lots of ice lemon tea, to the point where we went to the toilet countless times between 3-7pm. There was some drama at the table behind us, quite scary man.I ate my hot dog and the ice cream too, bliss!

I've got to go back to mf on saturday, no matter what, since i need to pass yanqing her cookies and get the cookies from fongning and i need to pass to lester mine's and addie's dreams5 handbook(how am I gonna get the handbook from her, i really don't know). not to mention, COH. then i will be going off to the airport to study with edith.haha. i study in weird places.

oh ya, I hope yusheng will organise another BBQ since i missed the June one, i wanna see my boys! and i've got my national camp outing in december too.HAHA.FINALLY! Also, Adeline Koh will be going to the camp training for guides with me, so i don't need to go alone.yay!and i will be seeing her twice.hahaha.

it's been ages since i last blog, mainly cos i accidently crashed/reformatted/lost everything in Frances's laptop(i got into BIG trouble cos of that) and mine is still in repair.

Anyway, a late entry on Andreas's party 3 weeks ago. Edith and I arrived there at around 5pm, which was pretty early and weiyi and andreas fetched us from escape to the chalet itself. The highlight was seeing miao,gatsby boy and yingjie!and may and xueying. Edith,the scouts and I mainly kept ourselves busy by playing cards-UNO,cheat and 21 points and eating the buffet.haha.I think the party is a glimpse of what Andreas's wedding will be like cos she invited like 100 people to her party. :D After the party, Gatsby boy,miao,Edith and I went home together.hehe.

offically, school had ended, but exams will be around 2 weeks time.then HOLIDAY!!!! which i can forsee will be very busy. the things that are confirmed are my national camp gathering, MINDS meetings, camp training for guides-3D2N at camp christine! and YA HQ meetings.Tentively will be the MCS gathering with priscilla,rebekah and yifang.Oh! and start working on my NYAA gold.LOL.
thank god i didn't get into SC, if not, really can die from exhaustion.