at times like this...

i really really really miss pulau belakang padang like hell.and those guys. god, i miss miaomiao's jokes, gatsby boy's warmth, chinhow's unexpected kindness, addie's protectiveness, yingjie's stupid emo-ness, fred's and lionel's jokes. andreas's radio too.

like really really really really miss them.

and carnival is gonna make me think of them, because 07 carnival was right after dreams5, and lianyi, andreas and addie came by the store to crap. and talk about the 4am rain[HAHAH.Andreas,remember?].



and mostly, because, i need their strength and love now.
dreams team= <3


My current to do list...before i forget.

1. Modernization Presentation-to be done by tmr night.
2. History Essay-READ THE BOOK!! due on the 9th of July.
3. Literature essay-likewise.due on the 10th of July
4. KOREA CAMP STUFF-ASAP, if not Ms J will kill me.
5. Do Korea Visa!!! I need the letter though.
6. Campfire-everything before 8th July.by hook or by crook.
7. Study for Bio test-thats on the 1st of July.chapter 6-12
8. Modernization debate-1st of July!!
9. Research president Andrew Jackson-suppose to be tonight, but i am really lazy to do it tonight.
10. SLEEP!!!
11. Pack bag for sleepover in guides house-to be done by tmr too.

yea, thats all i can think of for now. although the korea and the campfire things compromises of alot of little little details.

and i overslept this morning, like i was suppose in school by 9am but i woke up at 10:30am and reached school at 11:30am because i only slept at 6:30am. almost did not manage to hand in my bio paper.lesson of the day, have at least 4 hours of sleep per day, cos i think that the max my body can tahan.LOL.

gonna see logistics people tmr! =D.

hopefully, i won't fall asleep in history class again.

murphy's law of everything that can go wrong will go wrong theory happened to me today.very suay...

BUSY BUSY BUSY

like, seriously.

and i've got biology and modernization essays due on the 24th and 23rd respectively...

but before i give you guys my schedule....i still have 1 tiny thing i need to do.










I SERIOUSLY HATE SCHOOL!

they make it sound like i have a choice, which FYI, i bloody don't, to fly on the 3rd of august and they rejected my application to take the exams later.

HELLO! its an INTERNATIONAL CAMP! i can't change the date the camp starts. and both GGS and school isn't willing to compremise. so 2 countries at 1 time,eh? KNS, KNN and KB man. its like they WANT me to FAIL my LIT module le.bloody hell. AND I AM A CAMP STAFF please. haiz. i don't think they understand the importance of it. make me wanna potang school next monday-thursday to go to camp training. or maybe i should get above 30% for the module AND potang the exams. i've got no choice. whether they like it or not, i will be in korea by the 4th august, only want to make my life difficult.ARGHHHHHHHH. not like i am gonna call and ask what are the bloody exam questions, i will be in korea, for goodness sake.

on a happier note, camp is tomorrow.
yes, kelvin leong, camp is relaxing. as compared to school and all the other stuff.laugh until so evil somemore.

and i think dishan(and maybe priscilla) will be going to st.gabs campfire tmr also =)
still continuing the unspoken(or spoken now) tradition of st.gabs campfire being the 2nd place where the alumni gather.haha.

and the girls are asking me they are suppose to report at what time. GREAT. see la. act smart.
well, camp is stressful during the day, but at night, its like super shuang. i think day 2 is gonna to be a killer. worse come to worse, i will fight 3 battles in 1 day. yes, peck, alot of "shows" to watch.1 of which is seriously pointless and had been going on forever. and they are irritating morons too. mfgg alumni, you should know who i am talking about.

need to do bio report.bye guys!

its 4am and i am still not asleep. really asking to be sleepy for the site trip later.
that day, at botanic gardens, yingjie said something that echoed andreas's thoughts on dreams5.

self-control of emotions.

and i totally agree.if thats one common thing that everyone took away, its that. god knows why too. and 2008 was definitely a "shock mode" year. on to 2009 and i don't really feel anything anymore.

CAMP IS ON FRIDAY! :D

can't believe it.
hopefully no drama this year.
for the first time in my entire life, i am the camp's cc. but i seriously don't feel like it.
OMG! in my committee, there is 1 ex-CL, 2 ex-ACLs, 2 ex-ALs, 1 ex-secretary and 1 ex-commander. and among my facilis, 3 ex-CLs, 2 ex-ACLs, 2 ex-ALs, 1 ex-secretary and 1 ex-commander. HAHAH.unbelievable.shows that i have a talented pool of people with me[haha.my seniors and juniors, of course talented la].but quite intimidating also. and the 4 people i am the most intimidated with isn't my teachers, but xueying,may, andreas and peiwen.

its funny. but i think we've kind of went a full circle. mostly with may. since i clearly remember she was the one who recruited me into guides in the first place. then guide my batch into our first year of drill, "killed" my batch during the 05 camp and now this. so yes, i think i can never repay her back. i don't think i can ever repay andreas or xueying back too. except by trying to keep the company alive. let me assure you though, may still spoil me as she did when i was a kid. HAHA.as in, i remember in the 03 campfire, she made us all eat, by spoonfeeding us chicken rice.lol. and during MINDS camp, she was the one who made me go to sleep. still a kid in their eyes.that will never change i guess.LOL. like peckhui, jiayi, cai er and isabelle will still remain kids in my eyes, even though they are in jc/poly now.

cos of the simple fact. they saw me grow up. and i saw peckhui they all grow up. and its a really good feeling to be surrounded by these people :)

4:30am.going off to sleep.ciao!

and i still want mdm florence ng and ms annie ng!!!!!!!

i will openly declare something.




PECK HUI!!!! YOU MADE MY DAY! <3 our msn conversation made me laugh like mad. i totally miss you man. lets talk crap and rant during camp,okay? now i remember why i heave a sigh of relief when jolene said you were the CL eons ago[battle no 1: VICTORY! :)]. and i showed it to edith too.and she was laughing too. you can be angry for me.haha.i don't mind. alumni be angry together.haha.again. but really, thanks for making my super crappy day a day i can laugh about. my drama queen, you've put your new skills to good use :D-jia yi, feel free to inform her about this.lol.

EDITH and ANDREAS for obvious reasons. they've always been there throughout the years of drama. this time round, its no different.

JOEY, YANYING and YINGJIE. for today. if not for you guys, i wouldn't have survived today either.and yingjie, for taking a trip down memory lane with me. i haven't talked like that in a very long time, i guess i needed you[and mingxuan] to be there to talk like that.

lastly.MS ANNIE NG and MDM FLORENCE NG[omg! after soo many years,it finally comes naturally!]! this is a plead and a hollar for you guys to come back. PLEASE!!!!!!! i would do anything for you guys to come back. I MISSSS YOU SOOO MUCH!!!! i don't care how much you guys nag, criticize our proposals or spam us with the e-mails....I WANT(AND NEED) YOU BACK!!!! Guides isn't the same without you two.

its a miracle that i managed to do my history test yesterday, it being MCQ is another thing all together.lol. considering that i reached home at 12mn, ate and showered, so only started studying at 3ish-am?till around 5am i think.

its been 2 days of campfires, one at broadrick and one at anderson :)

and shit! got to start researching for my bio and modernization essays! bio's one is like 3-4 pages long and modernization's is 5-7 pages! mati lah. gonna get it from vachry, vikram, shweta and ronald if i don't produce the modernization essay out for them.

back to the campfires, its too late to start working on the essays anyway.

Went to broadrick sec to help out with junie's campfire, it was the first time i actually ever went to broadrick so had to call angeline for directions[she went there earlier]. haha.and i saw audrey, jiemin, swee keow,weiwen and of course, angeline and junie when i reach broadrick.LOL. kind of like a YA society or something. helped jiemin with the PA system and we started playing songs for the kids[brownies and cub scouts] from angeline's and jiemin's hps and my ipod. the emcees were not bad.HAHA. joking around with each other and they had chemistry. anw, the YAs became cheerleaders-to make everyone zi high.hehe.and then lead everyone in singing "peace like a river", "moonlight bay","canadian vesper" and "slivery moon" with junie and angeline.and you can see the cultural clash man. everyone had a different versions of how those songs were sang.that's guides for you.so it was quite confusing[and you can tell i was quite rusty already].

even though campfire was pretty great[hp died so managed not to think about those morons], what i love was what happened after campfire. all of us gathered around the stage and started singing.haha. and we blasted our songs and had a mini kbox session-out in the open air. and weiwen took alot of pictures man! 400!!OMG! we also lay our backs on the floor and stared at the night sky. and talked. haha. what i found funny was jiemin kept saying " 1 more song then we go home."and we camwhored like mad[although, not intentionally, swee keow and weiwen kept on snapping pictures]. by the time we left broadrick, i think it was around 11pm bah. angeline, jiemin and i were thinking of ways how to go home if we missed the last bus/train. the though of not being able to take the last train home crossed my mind. luckily angeline and i caught it. the 2nd last train home that is.HAHAHA. and i managed to take the last bus home.

i only remembered about anderson's campfire before i fall asleep on thursday morning and had a panick attack. haha.cos i saw my hp and it had "anderson campfire,7pm" under events. I TOTALLY FORGOT ALL ABOUT IT! thank god for joey. i sms-ed her and she told me where my girls were gonna meet. met joey and yanying on the bus and went to eat dinner with them. we didn't get the early bird award! aww man! monfort scouts did!

anderson's "campfire", was as usual great. the atmosphere was still the same as last year's. music blasting, scouts being super zi-high, awesome decorations and great theme.losing myself in that moment wasn't hard.hahaha. screamed like mad when the Anderson sec 2s and 3s danced, when their military band performed, when their NCC did their fancy drill and when their SC danced. during games, jabez and i watched our kids being sabotaged and we crapped while they were off watching the performances and participating in the games. i learnt the difference of the rovers wearing the tie and the scarf.LOL.

i think we had to take alot of things "home", the "door gift" and the souvenir, both totally cool stuff. can't describe it to you, got to go to my guides room to see them. we still have the signboard that they gave us last year.hehe. which means that guides room/scouts den gonna be messy AGAIN today. and i saw yiteng!! HAHA. can't believe she still remembers me, considering the last time we met was during nat camp last august. soo nice man!

gonna see my MINDS EXCO soon!!!!still have quite a few things that we need to discuss. scouts den/programme room at SSA, here i come!!! haha. cos i don't know when i will be able to step in there again. and i wanna see how crappy those guys can be again, especially kelvin, hendz and stanley.hahaha. camp does produce miracles. seriously.

5:12am. got to sleep! morning! :)

camp crisis.

I SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY HATE THEM! THEY SERIOUSLY ARE IDIOTIC _________! DO NOT EVER USE THAT TONE ON ME! YOU HAD ALLL THE TIME IN THE WORLD TO DO IT AND YOU WANT TO DO IT DURING MY CAMP? DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT IT!

and they managed to ruin my good mood for junie's campfire yesterday.

ARGH!!!!!!!!

i jz want to hold my camp next week, how hard can it be? a normal 3D2N training camp. apparently, sabotaging my blood, sweat and tears is fun. to think i was looking forward to spending quality time with the leaders[in our dear I&E room], disturbing my boys on friday[they are gonna have to have scouts meeting! :) ] and midnight prata on both nights. small things i absolutely love about mf camps.

Gonna have history test...later today. gonna bath then study.nights people!
and thanks for today, angeline, jiemin, weiwen, swee keow and junie. :D

Am doing camp proposal now, almost almost done! shooting starts on Saturday, don't shoot me now.

school and korea camp are in conflict now! alamak. seriously. i have no idea what to do about it. my exams will finish on the 5th of august, in the afternoon BUT i have to be in Korea by the 4th of august morning(we are flying off on the 3rd of august,midnight) to be there for the camp on the 5th of august morning(they shift the camp date up from the 6th to the 5th). AND GGS isn't letting me fly later AND school isn't gonna allow me to take my exams later also(after i come back). goodness gracious. add in swine flu and my chances of going to Korea are getting slimmer and slimmer by the day. WHY IS IT SOO HARD TO GO TO AN INTERNATIONAL CAMP?!!

taking 1 camp at a time, settle and survive my june camp first, then talk about korea camp and lastly december camp.

this is, officially, camp season :D

not like i have anything to be happy about since i will still have school for the whole freaking month while everyone is off on holiday. i will jz fall asleep in class more(due to the lack of sleep in camp), not be able to go to another round of camp training(OMG! the though of ponning school for CTC had crossed my mind before, BUT i have lab report due on that day.SUAY!!!) and watching people go for camp after camp *coughangelinecough*. i have a sad life man.

reserving 5 days in august(next year) for NATIONAL CAMP though. i MUST go for nat camp.by hook or by crook.