Sunday, July 19, 2009
9:53 PM
As with every expedition, i ask myself this question...
how much of it is worth scarificing?
how much am i willing to scarifice?
this time round, the answers to these two questions are questionable. because those 2 elements are always always decided by
my team mates. how bonded am I to them and that team spirit that is pretty evident in dreams5,the MINDS camp and the most recent, GGS Carnival. for the first time, i don't feel one with the team.
do we need to spend countless hours practicing singapore town to achieve that? i guess so.
this came to me on saturday's meeting, when my heart was with the YAs upstairs eating mrs peter's lunch instead of with the brownies, yanling and teachers downstairs. i did the tent-pitching, singing and dancing half-heartedly. when it should have been a happy affair,it became a chore.
yes, its the
right thing, whatever it is, to be downstairs instead upstairs. BUT i think when its done half-heartedly, it becomes pointless. i can tell you what happen after the meeting more than what went on during the meeting....
and...i finally knew what xueying was trying to tell me during the last day of camp, during tent-pitching.
finally, for korea, am i willingly to scarifice my own guides meeting, exams and my gangshow?